It’s a question that really puzzles many and baffles the brains of those who wish they could discover their mission.
Do you spend up to eight hours a day in a job that keeps you in survival mode or do you spend all your waking hours doing what you truly love?
The reason we’d rather be in survival mode is the guarantee of a salary, right? Or you’d be doing what you love but not earning anything at all because you know it just wouldn’t feel like work. You won’t be setting goals, getting up before sunrise to sit in traffic for an hour. All of which justifies your existence. Or does it?
If you made the decision to write for eight hours a day, you’d be looking for a guarantee that a certain number of people would be buying your books; that a grand sum of money would be deposited in your bank account on a certain date to guarantee your financial security. And – you’d want a guarantee that you’d never starve or want for anything again.
But where would those guarantees come from? I’ve been told from within but I am yet to master this concept. I would love to believe that I can have everything go my way any time. I’ve had small successes from time to time but nothing major. For example, I work for a software company selling a payment facility. Two years’ ago I was selling a booking calendar for the same company but things didn’t work out with the sales manager at the time and I was redeployed to another sales office. I was peeved but promised myself I’d return to that office. Today I was given the news that I’d be returning there.
Now, If I can do that, surely I could have bigger successes but the challenge is that I spend eight hours a day working at my day job, putting all my energy into being a better employee, mastering skills that people half my age regard as a big deal.
I need time to figure it out but come home wasted, spent, too tired to do anything but watch television for two hours, then fall asleep. I am not alone in the quest for a higher existence. This is most peoples’ routine and every day we hope for better but slip into the routine of mediocrity so easily.
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